(If you’re looking for a fitness post keep on scrolling. I need some truth time over here)
I just need to have a girl talk so I’m gonna right here. lol. (I’m just gonna ramble)
Deep, I’m a romantic girl, but I’m those kind of people who are always single. I’ve had a good number of relationships, but I’m rarely with a boyfriend. For one I’m really picky. Also I make a point in nor depending on anyone, and most guys aren’t comfortable with that. And I’m also a bit afraid of relationships. But this is all for my shrink. The point is, since I came to Europe I’ve met amazing guys, but they never live in my town. One, I don’t like Italian men, but also I think it fits all my neurosis. I know I have a brief amount of time with that person, so I don’t think, I jump. And it’s ok, cause when the person goes I am obligated to get back to my single life. It just works. Except for times like these when you get back from an amazing date and I don’t feel like saying goodbye. You know those dates that don’t seem like a date cause amazingly I feel comfortable with him, I can make my nerdy jokes (surprisingly he gets them), I can talk on and on about running and lifting cause he’s a bodybuilder.
Actually I know a million reasons (besides distance) why this wouldn’t work. In the end, it’s perfect that I don’t have a lot of time with him. But at the same time it’s so rare to find someone that laughs at your jokes, you know?
But I’m the kind of person who thinks that the things we really want we make it happen. I wanted to be fit, I became, even though I was a REALLY curvy (you know what i mean). I wanted to be a runner, I became one, even though I have asthma, low blood pressure, tendency to be hypoglycemic and a bad knee. I wanted to live alone in europe, I just came. I wanted to be a writer, I found a publisher. I wanted to be happy, I got over my depression (yeah something I never talked about here). So if I really wanted a relationship I would be in one, wouldn’t I? I don’t believe in excuses or fate. You make things happen. You just do. Now, why I’m standing in my on way when it comes to a personal life?
One thing I know. It feels damn good to be independent and I’m terrified of knowing what would happen if I felt that I need someone else in my life.
I’m ok. I’m happy with my date and with my life. really happy. I’m just circling around those thoughts. You know, I’m 25… I thought I’d have those things a little more figured out by now.
Do one thing that scares you everyday? Yep. You bet your ass…
(on a more cheerful note he said it’s notable that I have more muscles, but im still skinny - his nick name for me has always been ‘skinny girl’ lol)
“I like to say, and I truly believe, that every run brings new experiences. You just don’t know what they might be until you actually do the run. That’s one of my major reasons for pushing out the front door as often as I do—the adventure of it all.”—Amby Burfoot, Editor at Large, Runner’s World (via runslikeapenguin)
So the dream guy: really tall, dark haired. I’m a sucker for tall, dark and handsome. Nice eyes, wearing a blue t shirt. Runners build, slim but with a bit of muscles. And he also had a really nice stride. <3<3